First
Like I've been dreaming about this moment. My heart was beating faster and my body went warm, but the pose that I stood in didn't change at all.
I've must looked like a frozen statue, well a pretty weird statue. All the people around us pushed themselfs to get trough the crowd of people. I finally turned around and saw the face of the 19 year old boy, stand infront of me.
"Oh I'm sorry, I havn't introduced myself yet. Taylor Lautner." He said and shook my hand.
I hold my hand were he let go of it. This was the first time he actually touched me. Still these stupid positions, they were driving me crazy. Why couldn't I just act normal and just say my name?!
I opened my mouth but the words wouldn't come out!
"I know you're from Sweden, but I didn't think it was so hard to understand english, I mean, you have a really good pronunciation when you sing! I could hardly understand that you're from sweden."
Why couldn't I talk ? I'd been picture this moment for years, even rehearsed infront of a mirror!
COME ON ! JUST SAY THE DAMN NAME!
"LINDA!" I almost screamed at him. He nodded. I cleard my troat and tried to talk like a human.
"Well I really don't have any huge problem with my english." I said and laughed a bit.
"So this is your first EMA's?" He asked and smiled at me.
" No second, actually. But this was my first performance here."
"Really!? Why havn't I've seen you before?"
" No clue, Maybe you only see things you like to see." I said with a smile and looked down.
"Well that's why I see you now!" He said and laughed.
"BERRS!" Natalie shouted a few feet away in the crowd, holding up two redbull and waving at me.
"Uhm, that's me the girl over there who looks like an idiot waving at me, is talking to." I said annoyed.
"Well then, I hope I'll meet you later at the after party?"
"Yeah sure." I said, smiling huge.. like an idiot of course. I looked at him one last time before I pushed myself to the crowd. When I got through I didn't notice that I was chewing my lip and had a bright smile on my face.
"What happend to you?!" Natalie said and started to laugh.
Looking good Edward!
Happy Birthday Kristen!
Jake
I felt his strong warm arms around me. They were shaped so perfectly, like they were made to hold me like this forever. I held my arms around his back and hold on tightly. I never wanted to let go. I held on to his shirt as hard as I could, so he wouldn't disappear. I laid my head against his chest. I could hear his heart beating. He pulled me closer, like he didn't wanted me to disappear either.
His body was warm, our bodies were shaped perfect against each others.
As we stood in the dark room, next to the open window, I heard a sound except from his heart. That familiar sound, a howl.
He loosened the grip he had around me.
"No!" I said and held on tighter. My hands shacked because of the grip I had round his shirt. I held as hard as I could so he wouldn't leave.
"You know I have to." He said.
"No! You don't have to do anything! Stay here with me. Please." I said and he could hear the pain come out trough my voice. He didn't understand how much I wanted him to be here. How much I wanted him to hold me forever. I never wanted him to leave. I never wanted him to say goodbye.
He shaped his hands round my face. He could se the pain in my eyes.
"I'll be right back! I promise" he said and looked deep into my eyes like he always used to. Those words didn't mean anything anymore. ‘I promise'. I'd heard it to many times before. I didn't believe him.
He wouldn't come back. And I couldn't stand one more time. He was killing me with every step he took away from me.
The sound, the howl came again. He jumped up to the window. He looked at me. He saw me stand alone and so small, so empty. This would hunt him in his dreams.
"I promise" He said.
Team Jacob or Team Edward ?
Never Think
He held he's hand out. Like he was offering something. Like he would take me to a better place.
I hesitated and took one step back. He looked confused and took one step closer to se if I was afraid of him.
But he was wrong. He was the forbidden apple. The forbidden fruit. The forbidden one.
He was the one who tasted much sweeter, looked more delicious and was the most dangerous one.
He was the one that I wanted. I could'nt fall for him, It would be wrong. I had to be strong so that I wouldn't fall for the mask. The mask. His voice, his beautiful diamond face and his sweet sent. That speciall smell that I almost could taste.
He came closer and I looked away. Because when I got closer It got harder.
First because all of this was a dream. Second, I didn't want to wake up in tears and feel empty.
I closed my eyes and turned my face down. He was to close now. I could feel the heat in my body.
I could feel my blood float trough my vains like a rush.
He took my hand, his hand was cold and it felt like electricity against mine. He took his other hand and held up my
face close to his. I did'nt opened my eyes. I could already feel the pain that I would feel when I woke up.
"It hurt's that you don't belive in me, like I'm going to disappear. I've told you that I'm not going to leave you." he wispered.
I looked into his eyes. Tried to find something that was real.
He pulled me closer and carefully touched his lips against mine.
I realised that I wasn't dreaming anymore.
12 things you'll never hear Edward say
Hahahah some lines that I found at some webbsite. I know my humor sucks.
This is 12 things that you'll never hear Edward Cullen say.
1. Bella, you have just been PUNK'D!!!!
2. Bella, I'm gay.
3. Yes, I'll admit it. I'm perfect
4. Yo. Bella. Wassup?
5. Bella. I'm leaving you... For Jacob
6. You know, I think that Jessica and I are meant to be together. See ya!
7. MWAHAHAHAHAHA! Ok, so how was that for my evil Dracula laugh?
8. Alice, would you be upset if I told you that I MAY have tried on your undies this morning? (
9. I'm having a fangtastic time! Get it? Fang-tastic... haha it's so hilarious, how can you possibly not laugh? Haha *cough* so... umm yeah
10. I worship 50 Cent
11. Bella, Im pregnant...
12. Bella, when I left you... I had an affair...
Kellan Lutz, Rob Pattinson
Ice cream
What's better than icecream in the morning ?
We got two for free when we got of the train and we did'nt walk all the way to work we took the underground train(?)
Thank god..
Later today I'm finally meeting Nea here in town ! We're going to get some (more) ice cream and just walk around it the sun, go to different store's and look for new sunglasses. :)
Creepy Rob
HAHAHAHHAHAHA LOOK HERE HE IS !
Sorry to kill your dreamy thoughts about him.. but here's your prins charming behind the mask of Edward Cullen.
Eye Candy
Rumours
That Stephanie killed herself and that Rob would'nt be in New Moon... That's just crap.
Stephanie would never do that and of course Rob is going to be in the movie ! How the hell would the movie be then ?!
He is actually be in the movie more than in the book.
Skillet Comatose
Hello everyone, sorry that I don't write as much as I should. That's gonna change, I promise!
I just got back from lunch, mom and I ate at McD as usual. I can already se my stomach grow bigger.
I blame you, mom.
We walked to H&M and I found a lot of stuff that I wanted.. :(
I want a big easteregg with clothes in. Mami.. Papi...<333333333333
Tomorrow it's friday and my last day at my practise. I'll maybe get to met Nea and if I do, were going to the movies or
something fun. She turned 15 this week! Of course we're gonna celebrate, but I don't know when.
This weekend Nea and I have a lot to catch up. I'm going to Milhouse (Elins place) and meet Bella and everyone.
AND maybe I'll get my cell back! I feel kinda' naked without it.
I'll write more about my day when I get home and more fact about New Moon shoot, more pictures and a short story to Hanna that I wrote yesterday.
Cya l8r ;) <3
Redhead
And at the easterbreak it's going redbrown, a little bit darker than nea's, a little bit browner.
I know it sucks writing on english. I hate it.
I really looking forward to start sing in my band. For those who does'nt know, Nea and I have a band.
We're not that serious now, but maybe later. Well, We both sing and Nea play the guitar.
I know you don't like this nea but we're going to write lyrics about eclipse.. :)
Paramore - pressure, emergency, conspiracy
After this week it's coming a lot more pictures !
Weekend
Mine was great!
Friday was calm, we watched let's dance and rented 5 movies:
Hancock
Batman (the latest)
Step up 2 the streets
Morgan Pålsson
Fantastic Four
Saturday we went to town and I brought a lot of things to my room!
Chunky Banana candle
4 big yellow candle's
3 small banana candle's
1 big light pink, 1 smaller light pink and a globe light pink.
Photoalbum in gold
2 big frame's
3 like eye pathes you use when you sleep, one pink, one black and one you freeze in.
1 make up bag in gold
1 tray with flowers on ^^
We ate dinner at Friday's and then we went home.
I met Robert and Adrian at ICA, I broght a Ben n' Jerrys Half baked and a Okej magazine.
I went to meet Hannah Montana and Robert and Adrian followed me.
At home we joined Earth Hour! It was candles everywere.
We watched Step up 2 and Morgan Pålsson xD
Yesterday I watched Fantastic Four and ate my Ben n' Jerry.
I sang while I put my make up on.. loud.
But no one heard me, I had my stereo loudspeaker's on.
ONE WEEK LEFT TO EASTERBREAK!
